Canadian-American mystery writer Charlotte MacLeod coined something she called, âtreading-water syndromeâ. This was, âpanic at being out of oneâs depth. Fear that, if a case did not quickly yield up its secrets, it would remain forever impenetrable.â The character who said that was a middle-age college professor. By putting those words in his experienced mouth, MacLeod was saying that it happens to us all.
Thatâs just what happened to me at my first professional plein air event. I was slopping solvent around my underpainting, which made everything dark and muddy. Then I tried to use white to lighten that layer. In fact, I was pretty much breaking every painting rule Iâd ever learned. Eventually, a friend came over and brought me up sharp: âCarol, stop this. You know how to paint.â I took a deep breath, wiped out the canvas, and painted the painting properly.
My friend Brad Marshall called what I was doing âflailing around.â Itâs a good description of one way in which we temporarily take leave of our senses. But itâs not the only way. Thereâs also:
- Creative block: you suddenly have no ideas at all, or if something occurs to you, it doesnât seem worth pursuing;
- Obsessing over details: Iâve wrecked some perfectly wonderful paintings doing this;
- Avoidance or procrastination;
- Negative self-talk;
- Imposter syndrome: âWhy did they let me in when thereâs so many great painters here?â Bobbi Heath can attest to how many times sheâs had to talk me off this cliff;
- Emotional and physical distress: in moments of stress, Iâve learned to look and sound calm, but my gut always betrays me;
- Seeking external validation: Thatâs not necessarily a bad thing, but it requires that thereâs someone around whoâs kind-hearted and intelligent enough to give you the right nudge.
First principles
I just heard a story about a very competent musician who couldnât make it in music. His highs were too high; his lows too low. He essentially never found a way to manage his panic.
One way to get over treading-water syndrome is to get older; youâre less inclined to panic in general. Thatâs not much comfort to younger people. And there are still times when everyone feels like theyâve lost control. How, then, do you get your ship righted with the least amount of psychic pain?
It helps me to have a plan. I approach painting the same way each time, and if Iâm feeling jittery, I slow down on the value drawing until my mind submits. I teach every workshop from a syllabus. Thatâs primarily so I know Iâll cover the important stuff. However, when something unexpected happens, I can take a deep breath, return to my notes and keep going.
A plan is just an external support to our cognitive flexibility and self-monitoring. You canât beat it.
Eensy weensy bites
As you can imagine, thereâs rather a backlog here after Iâve been gone so long. Iâm pretty disciplined about studio work before housework, but some of these domestic tasks havenât been done since October. If I try to tackle everything at once, Iâm just going back to bed until after the holidays. Instead, Iâm going to ignore the big picture and tackle one small thing at a time. Itâs my best strategy to avoid total paralysis.
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- Canyon Color for the Painter, Sedona, AZ, March 10-14, 2025
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- Sea and Sky at Acadia National Park, August 3-8, 2025.
- Find Your Authentic Voice in Plein Air, Berkshires, MA, August 11-15, 2025.
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