I understand and empathize with defensiveness very well, but I also know that it is paralyzing.
Annett Sauve lets me demonstrate on her canvas. (Photo courtesy of Jane Chapin) |
Thomas Edison is credited with saying that āGenius is one percent inspiration and ninety-nine percent perspiration.ā He ought to have added persistence in that equation. Itās a kind of intelligence, one that isnāt measured on tests and used as a predictor of successābut it ought to be.
Of the six students in this workshop, two are returning students. They share that trait of persistence. For both of them, the process of painting has really clicked on this trip. I refine my teaching method with every class, which I think makes it clearer, but the difference is mostly in them.
Mary Whitney’s painting in paradise. |
Painting is not simple. Learning it takes time, and is a two-way dialogue. The student must be open to whatās being taught in order to make any real progress. Likewise, the teacher must be listening constantly for cues from the student.
For a long time, I was a very defensive painting (and everything else) student. I knew what I thought I knew and wasnāt willing to let others change that, even as I understood I needed help. It was a pity, because it blunted any possibility of becoming a better painter.
What were the symptoms of this self-defeating viewpoint? Whenever a teacher suggested I try something a different way, I responded with a rationalization. āI know, butā¦ā saved me from having to try and fail. I was unnecessarily critical of othersā work, and there was a very limited range of paintings I understood enough to love.
Karla King and me, working at Pecos National Historic Park. (Photo courtesy of Jane Chapin) |
What cured that? My broken self-image was repaired. To explain how I was broken would require delving into a maelstrom, so I will skip it. But the cure was a combination of my developing faith (I was made in Godās image, so I canāt be fatally flawed) and the slow development of real competence. This was not just as a painter, but as a parent, a spouse, and a functioning adult.
I understand and empathize with defensiveness very well, but I also know that it is paralyzing. I canāt fix it by simply saying, ālet down your defenses.ā That insecurity is the very nut the student is trying so hard to protect.
Instead, I sidestep the whole question by insisting that, for one week, workshop students try it my way. Itās not arrogance on my part, but rather the desire that students get value for the money theyāre shelling out.
Historic New Mexico. |
Iām thinking about this because Iām going to do a free cocktail-hour webinar on October 2, where Iāll talk about objectives in studying painting. Everyone is welcome, and I hope you bring lots of questions.