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Detail from my current unfinished painting. |
When I go silent about my own work, that means Iâm involved in a big mess. My process, as it were, is that I show up in my studio every day at the same time expecting a miracle. More often than not, they happen. But at times nothing works. My painting looks and feels mechanical and rusty.
This is not to say that I donât know what Iâm doingâI haven’t forgotten how to paint. But between the technical and the transcendent, there is slippage that nobody can define. Thatâs not unique to painting; itâs true of music and (I suspect) a host of other creative endeavors. We sometimes call these things âhappy accidents,â but they are more than that. Theyâre as if the whole universe suddenly slides into place, right there in that tiny rectangle in front of you.
Occasionally, the opposite happens. Nothing comes together. I tap, tap, tap on the frozen parts while nothing moves and I get more aggravated. Those are the weeks I wish Iâd taken up something fun, like dentistry.
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Monhegan lobster traps, waiting to trip up the unwary painter. |
Whatâs got me flummoxed this week is an old nemesis: the lobster trap. A modern lobster trap looks like a plastic-coated
Havahart (ÂŽ) trap, for you inland dwellers. It operates on the same principle: a lobster unthinkingly (because thatâs how lobsters do) crawls up a funnel and gets stuck in the main room. I know how big lobster traps are, what colors they come in, whatâs inside them, and how they reflect light. But I donât seem to be able to paint them convincingly. Whatâs heartening is that I donât much like how anyone else paints them, either.
If only Maine lobstermen would use creel-style pots like they do in Scotland! These are rounded, more solid and poetical. But Iâm an American, and my paintings ought to be grounded in what is real for my time and place. Darn it.
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I never finished this sketch of lobster traps at Port Clyde, but it’s on my schedule. |
When Iâm stuck on something, I revert to first principles. Get closer, look more carefully, and draw, draw, draw. Iâve asked for the loan of a trap, and Iâm going to set it up in my studio and study it. (Iâd rather not do that in the blowing snow, thanks.) I hope that I have some sort of epiphany that informs my work going into next summer.
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This is the lad who really owned that lobster boat, but I never took a photo of him while I was painting him. |
Iâm finishing a painting I started years ago, of Eastportâs lobster fleet. I worked on this for days on the public landing, but it wasnât finished before I had to leave. The tooth on the canvas is much rougher than I use today. Itâs kind of nice, but the adjustment is hard.
Because I took very few photos, Iâm forced to make a lot of stuff up. Part of me is certain that a someone will look at this painting and say, âthat boat would never have that standing shelter!â
Sadly, I had to lose the figure of the young man who owned the closest boat. He was just too large in my plein air rendering. Since I had no photos of him on his boat, heâs been replaced by a Gloucester fisherman. Iâm not sure if that should even be legal.
Meanwhile, Iâll be back tomorrow to tap, tap, tap some more. Eventually it will all fall together. It always does.